fear; to dread; I'm afraid that...; perhaps; maybe[cedict]
亲手
qīn shǒuㄑㄧㄣ ㄕㄡˇ
personally; with one's own hands[cedict]
把
bǎㄅㄚˇ
bàㄅㄚˋ
to hold; to contain; to grasp; to take hold of; a handle; particle marking the following noun as a direct object; classifier for objects with handle[cedict]