in fact; in reality; actually; as a matter of fact; de facto; ipso facto[cedict]
我
wǒㄨㄛˇ
I; me; my[cedict]
自杀
zì shāㄗˋ ㄕㄚ
to kill oneself; to commit suicide[cedict]
过
guòㄍㄨㄛˋ
(experienced action marker); to cross; to go over; to pass (time); to celebrate (a holiday); to live; to get along; excessively; too-; surname Guo[cedict]
想要
xiǎng yàoㄒㄧㄤˇ ㄧㄠˋ
to want to; to feel like; to fancy; to care for sb; desirous of[cedict]
杀
shāㄕㄚ
to kill; to murder; to slaughter[cedict]
我
wǒㄨㄛˇ
I; me; my[cedict]
自己
zì jǐㄗˋ ㄐㄧˇ
self; (reflexive pronoun); own[cedict]
但是
dàn shìㄉㄢˋ ㄕˋ
but; however[cedict]
我
wǒㄨㄛˇ
I; me; my[cedict]
去
qùㄑㄩˋ
to go; to leave; to remove; fourth tone of putonghua[cedict]
看
kānㄎㄢ
kànㄎㄢˋ
to look after; to take care of; to watch; to guard[cedict]
it depends; think; to see; to look at[cedict]
纯正
chún zhèngㄔㄨㄣˊ ㄓㄥˋ
genuine[cedict]
的
deㄉㄜ˙
díㄉㄧˊ
dìㄉㄧˋ
of; structural particle: used before a noun, linking it to preceding possessive or descriptive attributive[cedict]